My Satisfaction - My Vanity

Its been an amazing revelation for me to realize that I have become a workaholic. This is also considering the bum that I have been all of my life. Maybe and hopefully its a temporary thing with the family visiting Pakiland while I being in Dubai. I have been spending long hours at work and coming home only to sleep.

The worst thing about this is that even on weekends, I wake up pretty early and can't seem to sleep longer even if I force myself. The following is inspired from another one of those early mornings when my family was here.

There have been many regular weekend mornings in the recent past when I wake up early. In watching those closed eyes with the eyeballs rolling under the eyelids, I have found my favorite past-time for weekend mornings. Just lying there watching the eyeballs moving left to right and waiting for that smile to creep in.

When that smile does linger in, I'd feel like I was one of the luckiest people in the world.

Then turning over and seeing another little piece of my heart with legs curled up, one hand under the cheek, the other on my chest. Same story, little eyeballs rolling under smaller eyelids and the occasional smile.

I further realized that I was not one but pretty much the most lucky person in the world. Other than O of course.

For me, seeing those smiles on my family's face is a feeling of content. For the bread-earner of the house, there is nothing more satisfying than seeing the dependents having a peaceful night's sleep. It spells out the job well done in provision of food, shelter and clothing. It spells out a fulfillment of responsibilities. It spells out the feeling of content that they have from me and my efforts.

Marriage and Fatherhood and for that matter any relationship is a two-way affair. We all seek contentment in what we do. We seek acknowledgment. We seek satisfaction.

The life we live is not worth living if there is no inspiration. One of the best inspirations could be people who depend on you. If its working two-way then you are bound to succeed. You are being inspired by them and they are being inspired by you.

I am proud of mayG, my wife. How many guys out there can go around in a crowd and boast about their wife? I can and I do. I am so proud that I am Vain.

My Vanity is my Satisfaction.